There is nothing more beautiful
than his face looking at mine.
There is nothing more beautiful
than the sound of his laugh.
There is nothing more beautiful
than the touch of his hand.
There is nothing more beautiful
than the peace that surrounds him in sleep.
There is nothing more beautiful to me
than this beautiful child,
his beautiful body, his beautiful soul.
-kara
Organic Sunshine burger on Rudy’s Colorado Cracked Wheat with sliced tomato and lots of Veganaise, whole wheat cous cous with chopped tomato and a splash of canola oil, a big tall glass of spring water with a half refill. Life is good!
-Kara Lynn
When I recover from ALS
I’m going to be careful
Not to fall into the old patterns,
Not to mistake my opposite
for my truth,
Not to forget what saved me…
Ever!
Not to forget!
When I recover from ALS
By then I will be free
I will know
and at the same time
not know
And I will be okay.
When I recover from ALS
I will be new
And ancient.
Knowledge will live in me,
but will rest peacefully,
And I shall discover life,
but my source will never fade again.
When I recover from ALS
I may not know how,
but I will have no doubt why.
Not from medicine,
Not from some other being
with claims to move and balance energy.
Not from the external world,
will my saving come.
The ability lies within.
Only I and my creator can know my energy
and how it should be balanced.
Only I and my creator know the truth
of how this dis-ease came to be in me.
And only my creator can lead me safely,
And only I can listen,
And only I can follow.
When I recover from ALS
I will not untune myself again.
I will love the beauty of my own world,
and seek not in the current of the racing world.
I will breathe long and deeply
and not hold in anything.
I will know my place, my meaning,
and finally my peace,
When I recover from ALS.
-kara
Rewinding, I see no place to stop,
no place in my history had been bookmarked.
I had dabbled here, there, and performed my untrained dance
with chains around my feet.
Where the hell did I think I was going?
Oh I had goals.
Never mind these goddamned chains!
With ignorance and much disgrace,
I lugged forth.
The clutter around me today reminds me too much
of the clutter that fails me as a real foundation for my life.
What have I been trying to build?
Still rewinding, I don’t see any comfortable place to stop.
So, I had never made it? I had never found the place,
was never comfortable, or received?
Ooooh! I hate to admit it!
My career had been wrong for me.
When did I get off the road to my destination?
My job was only meant to fund my way,
not become my way.
I was moving against the current,
struggling much more than those who chose the flow.
Keeping up, keeping head above
took all I had.
To hell with my destination!
I was deep in water here,
hands were full, time was sucked up by the current,
my life was swallowed whole,
and from the belly of some other entity’s goal,
I spent my all.
I had been holding on for life
in a current that tossed and fought me.
I had been letting wither
the perfect strengths I had been blessed with.
I had adapted, modified, bent, shrunk, and finally disengaged
my living, breathing, embryonic destiny.
Into the freezer it went…
It would keep there.
I’d bring it out to thaw at some point…
Yeah…
Now I am learning to let go.
Disease has come and grabbed my hands,
shook them free of all they grasped.
She slowed me down and told me “time to listen”.
She’s got something big to say to me.
-kara
Will I ever stop marveling at the miracle that smiles before me?
Will I ever get enough of his beautiful face?
Will his laughter ever cease to heal me?
Will the joy that dances in my heart ever tire?
Every day I grow bigger with my love for him.
I can’t stop hugging him, kissing him, absolutely adoring him.
He is so perfect in every way.
He is only two, yet seems to know much more than I.
He teaches me a better way to live.
His perfect soul, his perfect beauty, his perfect fire
dazzle me, inspire me, change me, lighten me.
That he chooses me to dance, laugh, and live with,
my blessing, I can hardly grasp.
I sing to earth and heaven
He is perfect in every way!
-kara