Home alone last night. Potty before bed. Stuck. Could not get up from toilet, even with walker/riser. Cried. Weaker. Slid to floor. Walked on knees down hall to bedroom. Hardwood on meatless knees. Bed too high. Found towel in basket on floor. Put under knees. Comfort. Drag phone from night stand. Press redial. Lew answers from grocery store parking lot. Hears my breathless cries. Coming home. I wait on knees.
I did not rescue
my peaceful heart
I did not keep life
safe and breathing
through all the
storms and wars
reckless aim of
thoughtless hate
I did not survive
the unsurvivable
I did not rise
and fly again
I did not!
I did not!
I did not
walk this far
to be kicked around by you!
You have nothing
to call your own
Your hands
feed only you
You lie low
wait for your share
You have nothing
to give
You have nothing
to show
You stand in the way
And I did not!
I did not!
I did not
walk this far
to be held back and down by you!
You have led a safe little life
a white little life
History belongs to others
those who step out into
the big world
and make their way
You scoff and mock
the brave, the daring, the believers
Even as we disappear miles beyond
your ability to see
Good riddance to you!
I did not!
I did not!
I did not
walk this far
to be destroyed and lost by you!
-kara